Spiritual Awakening

On The Road To Recovery

I love my Wednesday night meeting. It always gives me something to meditate on, or on occasion, an Ah-ha moment. In this group the first Wednesday of every month is a step study. It's December so you guessed it, step 12. Now I'm no where near my 12th step but I realized on the journey to recovery you sometimes pass check points on the way to your destination.

I Thought It Came From A Voice In The Sky

During the first few weeks attending meetings I would hear the phrase "spiritual awakening" when the steps were being read or when an 'ol timer' was sharing. It sounded a little twilight zone'y to me. Was my Higher Power supposed to call to me from the heavens. Months went by and nope, no voices, besides the usual committee in my head. 

I Came. I Came To. I Came To Believe.

One member shared a bookmark, it had the image of a butterfly in the various stages of formation with the above under each stage of development. It helped to remind her of the various spiritual awakenings she experienced over the years. "To Come" to a meeting may be someones first spiritual awakening, simply recognizing that something different is needed. I related to that and eventually I also "Came To". I Came to hear what others were sharing, I came to feel a part and not alone, I came to use the slogans in my day to day life.

It Isn't Even Something Noticed

 I realize that just in under a year of Al-Anon I have had several spiritual awakenings. Small gentle moments of realizing something about myself that I hadn't before. Because of these whispers that linger in my mind I have branched out in new ways. I have slowly let go of isolation, despite my fear. I have begun to better understand how and why I try to control and how not to. 

Courage To Change November 22

A few weeks back someone came up to me after a meeting and said, "I don't know if you realize it but I have noticed so much change in you since you began coming." My spiritual awakenings are much like the wanderings of a dream but the lasting impressions have made great change weather I am aware of them or not.

Fun Facts - Sound Very Al-Anon'ish

That list looks like the ideal and sounds a lot like the gifts of this program. I recognize that I do not carry these gifts with me everyday but I have also begun to see these gifts sporadically appear in my going on and am becoming grateful for the realization of spiritual awakenings in my life.

Thank you for letting me share, feel free to take what you like and leave the rest.